Wishful thinker with the worst intentions

sasha_nobody @ 2009-09-30T22:11:00

2009-10-01T02:16:00Z

I'm dealing with this no sleep thing alot better than I thought I would. I've already lost an assload of weight (a 16 month old and a 5 day old leaves not alot of time to eat lol) I'm going to go nuts when Christian goes back to work he's been a huge help done alot better than when Trent was born probably because it was his first kid and he didn't know what the fuck to do. Other than running myself around (even though Christian offers I still like to do all these things since he works and I don't) doing laundry, dishes, other housework, bathing both kids not to mention myself everything else is fine... besides not sleeping lol. We're going nuts over these Skelanimals Drea likes the cat so that's her Trent has a bat one because his middle name is Lugosi and the dogs name is actually Dax so it's fucking awesome it's about time we found some cute skeleton kid stuff.

sasha_nobody @ 2009-09-07T10:32:00

2009-09-26T14:38:17Z

So at around 11AM on the 24th I went into labor my water broke at like 4 PM and around 10 PM I got an epidural which worked great but I got stuck at 5 fucking cm from 11PM until around 9AM! They said my epidural slowed down my contraction pattern and gave me some pitocin but apparently it barely worked and around 5AM my epidural started wearing off so they gave me the button to push every 10 minutes but it didn't really help and the day nurse was super fucking awesome she was saying Dax turned diaganol (his head was near my left hip bone and his feet were up near the right side of my rib cage) she got me to get on my hands and knees and the contractions were hurting the right side of my back so bad everytime I had one so rubbed my back and in between she pushed around on my stomach and stuff to try to coax Dax to move his head into the birth canal then she got the anesthesiologist and he gave me another epidural and I laid on my right side since it was the one hurting the most and 20 minutes later I was completely numb again and I had went from 5 to 8 cm and Dax had moved his head into the birth canal I pushed 4 times feeling nothing and he came out which was awesome so thanks to the nurse no pain AND no C section! At 9:51AM (my kids are a minute off! Drea was 4:09PM and Trent was 10:29AM) Dax Eueal Speer was born 7 lbs 9 oz (so he's 7 9 Drea was 7 11 and Trent was 7 13) and he was 20 inches long (also a pattern Trent was 19 Dax 20 and Drea 21 inches) and his head was 36 cm around and he's awesome and fine and I'm putting up the pictures on myspace in a few!

sasha_nobody @ 2009-09-03T10:55:00

2009-09-22T14:59:06Z

so today is Adam's birthday and Brand New comes out and we got our computer fixed =) I'm STILL pregnant though 13 days until my due date but I have a feeling we're going to go over I've been contracting horribly for like 3 weeks on the 4th they put me on magnesium sulfate over night in the hospital to stop labor because the shot and the pills didn't work and I think they fucked us because now I can't get past 1 cm and it's killing me and on top of that taking care of Trent is just nuts. We're going to name him Dax Eueal (Eueal sounds like you'll it's my dads first name). everything else is good though we don't go back to the doctor until the 2nd which is 3 days before my due date just the waiting is killing me I hope he comes before then; stuff with Christian is awesome Trent's getting stuck up his butt almost as much as he is with me which helps me out alot and makes Christian bond with him alot more than before since he was all about "mommy". we took a little break after my baby shower a few weeks ago my mom watched Trent and Drea and we went to see Halloween 2 I wanted to see Inglourious Basterds but 2 and a half hours is a long time so I'm waiting for the DVD we rented I loved you man and as I thought that movie was fucking hilarious and Christian rented Batman Arkham Asylum which was a pretty awesome game. Drea's still all into Joe Jonas and Trent's still all about spongebob; yep that's about all that's been going on I'll put the pictures I've took since our computer fucked in the next few days on myspace.

sasha_nobody @ 2009-05-27T14:33:00

2009-05-27T18:36:01Z

I so own.

sasha_nobody @ 2009-05-23T15:56:00

2009-05-23T20:04:35Z

So Trent got his shots last Thursday and they also had to prick his finger to check for anemia it was so funny the nurse took the thing and pricked his finger and he looked at her and in the most monotone voice said "oooowwwww". He didn't cry or anything he just did that lol and he said it again when she kept squeezing it to get enough blood out; then he wouldn't stop chewing on the band-aid they put on his finger. He pulled it off his finger with his teeth like 5 minutes after she put it on there but it wasn't bleeding so we left it off but he had to get 4 shots =( I don't deal with shots; with Drea my mom always helped the nurses with her cause I couldn't do it and with Trent's 2 month shots the doctor helped the nurse and with his 4 month set Christian did it and with his 6 month set my mom took me because Christian couldn't get off work and I got her to do it but this time they made ME hold his arms and I hated it. I swear I cried more than he did it was bad and being pregnant didn't help my emotions AT ALL lol. The whole first grade at Drea's school did a singing assembly at 6:30 the same day and she did really good towards the end it looked like she was getting bored but I don't blame her. This coming Friday on the 29th we're getting one of those 3D/4D sonograms =) so we'll know for sure if it's a boy and hopefully I get some good pictures from it to put up on myspace. Right now Christian's at a tattoo shop getting my name tattooed.. Trent was being a whiney butt so I decided not to go because now that he's crawling and almost walking everywhere he gets antsy and whines alot when he can't get down so I figured it'd be best for us to stay here but I'll have pictures of that in a few days too. Other than that nothings new or worth talking about.

sasha_nobody @ 2009-05-18T14:15:00

2009-05-18T18:17:21Z

Still haven't got my hair cut. Gotta doctor's appointment tomarrow at 3:30 and Trent has to get shots Thursday =(. Drea's still doing good and everything. Nathan, Shana and Mollie might come up this weekend; that's all I've really got for an update.

sasha_nobody @ 2009-05-12T15:22:00

2009-05-12T19:23:08Z

Happy birthday Trent!!!! I'm loading up his party pictures and putting them on myspace now.

sasha_nobody @ 2009-05-11T15:42:00

2009-05-11T19:48:53Z

So Trent will be ONE tomarrow I have pictures from his party but I probably won't be able to get them up until tomarrow. Last night we stayed up until 12 finishing Silent Hill Homecoming (which is one of the most awesome Silent Hill games and video games in general) we decided to do the 3 things required to get the "Bogeyman" (Pyramid Head) ending I don't know why they're calling him Bogeyman he's PYRAMID HEAD but it was AWESOME 2 pyramid heads come up each with one half of a pyramid head helmet and put it on and when you go through to game again you can go through it wearing the helmet so we're going to play again and do the UFO ending to get the LASER GUN (we're such dorks with no lives but hey we got kids we do what we can). Today we've been together (dating) for 3 years... it doesn't seem like that long; sometimes it seems longer but at least we're still happy either way. Tomarrow I'll deffinatly have the baby birthday pictures up probably just in a new album on myspace it's just a pain in the ass to put them on both and everyone that's sees this has a myspace so that's how it's goin'. These prenatal vitamins and pregnancy are killing me with the nail and hair growth I'm thinking about cutting my hair this weekend it's even getting to be a hassle to wash let alone brush and do anything remotely decent with it, now I just have to find a good hurrstyle. I hope everyone else had a happy mother's day and are doing good.

sasha_nobody @ 2009-05-05T12:37:00

2009-05-05T16:50:13Z

So we canceled the appointment for tomarrow because I really don't feel like being poked and prodded by someone who's not even my doctor besides Christian was really sick yesterday and had to take off so we just kinda switched the days. It's suprisingly been a little easier lately when I first got pregnant we argued alot because of the stress of having ANOTHER baby; but now it's like he understands and he's been doing alot more to help me around the house and help me with Trent when he's home. Trent's bad about wanting me to do EVERYTHING like feeding and bathing and such he kinda fights Christian when he tries to feed him but I think he's just used to me doing it since I'm with him all day but he LOVES playing with Christian he doesn't really seem interested in play time with me he just wants me to hold feed and change him but he whines every morning when Christian leaves for work and when he gets home he goes nuts wanting to play so I'm hoping this means he'll get off my back a little and want to do more with Christian since I'm going to have another baby to deal with soon. He's DEFFINATLY a mama's boy but he's getting better, I don't even see how I got pregnant since we don't get ANY alone time until anywhere between 8:30 and 10:30 it's going to be hard the first few months after this baby is born but once he starts sleeping all night too it should be fine because I know that's gonna put a little bit of a strain on us lol. But I will update again as soon as something happens. Until then.....

sasha_nobody @ 2009-05-01T12:47:00

2009-05-01T16:53:48Z

So Trent didn't get his shots yesterday I informed the woman I made the appointment with that he wasn't going to be one until May 12th and she said they could give him the shots anyway. Apparently not 2 out of the 3 shots he has to get her HAS to be ONE YEAR OLD! So he just got a check up so pretty much is was a waste of a trip we have to go back on the 21st which isn't that great since Christian already has to get off early on the 19th for one of my appointments but there's nothing we can do about that. I'll be 18 weeks pregnant Monday and so far I've LOST 6 pounds.. really I lost 8 but I gained 2 of it back, I don't really care how much I gain as long as the babys healthy but I don't want to gain not enough or too much. Trent's party is next Saturday! I'd invite the people I know in Charlotte but we're having it in Blacksburg at my parents since they have a big yard a bigger house and all our family is either there, close to there or in Anderson in the first place. That's really all that's happening and I need to get laundry done before Trent finishes his nap.

sasha_nobody @ 2009-04-27T12:24:00

2009-04-27T16:26:07Z

Took and assload of pictures over the weekend... it's too annoying putting them on here and myspace and myspace is just easier so they're there in various albums.

sasha_nobody @ 2009-04-25T18:19:00

2009-04-25T22:21:45Z

sasha_nobody @ 2009-04-25T10:39:00

2009-04-25T14:43:23Z

So we had the sonogram yesterday they gave us a face picture but you can't really make anything out on the picture I took of it. The baby was moving EVERYWHERE our due date is October 5th and the baby weighs 5 oz right now. And... it's a BOY she said she wasn't saying 100% and she'll take a picture of the "stuff" when we have our later sonogram but she says she's "pretty sure girls don't have those" lol. We don't really have a set name yet we're thinking about Aidan but I don't know yet, we have to do our follow up sonogram at Northpark CMC on May 6th so we should know more then.

an awesome movie

2009-04-23T22:36:45Z

it's deffinatly worth buying.

sasha_nobody @ 2009-04-22T09:49:00

2009-04-22T13:53:59Z

So yesterday I had my first appointment with MY doctor the one I actually chose and I don't know if October 8th is my right due date now. She said my uterus measured at about 18 weeks and if my due date is October 8th then I should only be turning 16 weeks tomarrow so Friday I have to go back for a sonogram she said they needed to do one anyway since I explained to her about the bloodclot that we went to the hospital for twice. We might even get one of those 3D/4D sonograms which would be awesome but either way at least we'll get to see the baby now. If I'm already 18 weeks maybe they can tell us if it's a boy or a girl =).

sasha_nobody @ 2009-04-20T11:45:00

2009-04-20T15:51:37Z

So I'm still BARELY gaining weight I weighed between 125 and 128 after Trent and when I got pregnant and lost pretty Trent has to get his one year shots on the 30th ): I hate it when he has to do stuff like that. Drea's been good acting like any other 7 year old running around since it's getting warmer and Trent's crawling EVERYWHERE (we had to block off the kitchen with a baby gate and leave our bedroom door closed so he'll stay in the living room) but it's good cause now I don't have to hold him as much and flail around near my stomach and actually he just crawled up to me and he doesn't smell pleasant lol so I'm gonna cut this off now and go change him, later.

sasha_nobody @ 2009-04-16T15:04:00

2009-04-16T19:05:46Z

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO DREA! I can't believe she's 7

sasha_nobody @ 2009-04-05T14:32:00

2009-04-05T18:51:01Z

Now for the more serious update...

2009-03-31T02:15:00Z

I'm still waiting on my medicaid so I still haven't seen a doctor besides going to the Health Department to get my pregnancy statement to get the medicaid. I had my WIC appointment today so now Trent and I both are getting a buttload on that plus when this baby is born we'll be getting even more foodstamps which is awesome (yea I'm on welfare but me and my husband have ourselves and 2 going on 3 mouths to feed so if you wanna be all judgemental about it you can suck it) but Tuesday night we had to go to the emergency room around 8:30 pm because I kept spotting (lightly bleeding) on and off for a week and I had a pain in my abdomen and back so bad I could barely move so Drea was at my moms so that means we only had to take Trent which with Drea being almost 7 it would've been easier taking her. We got there we waited I got called back to triage they took my temperature, blood pressure and asked what was wrong then we waited and got called back to a room I had to put on a gown and all that and pee in a cup and we waited then she came to take blood and put on IV thing in my arm when she did it which was a fucking pain because it was right where my arm bends and Trent's always wanting ME to hold him especially when it gets near time for him to go to sleep.... and we waited some more she came back with MORPHINE I didn't know prengnat woman could have that but it was a small dose.. it helped a little none the less and gave me phenergen because I've been really nasuous lately and put fluid in the IV (I guess they thought I was dehydrated) then we waited they came back and did a pelvic exam then we waited (lol) they did a sonagram which Christian couldn't go he stayed in the room with Trent and the lady had the thing turned so I didn't ask to see it because I think we should be able to see it at the same time. They put me back in the room Christian and Trent were in and didn't hook the IV back up and we waited the doctor came in and said the baby looked find healthy heart and all but there was bleeding between my uterus and the placenta so they were going ot give me a rogam shot. Explanation my blood type is O negative and I had to get these shots at 28 weeks and after birth with Trent and Drea because they both have positive blood but apparently the third baby and up it's a bigger risk me being Rh negative so I might have to get up to 4 and it sucks because they're butt shots and it's alot of liquid and it BURNS but everything's been fine since then I'm almost 13 weeks my due date they said they thought is October 8th so close-to-halloween baby which will be awesome. But other than that Drea's fine her birthday party is going to be on easter sunday at my moms (bigger place to have a party there) and Trent's party is going to be on May 9th. I've spent like $400 on both of them (spent it while I had it got it out of the way) Drea's having a black and pink pirate skull birthday and Trent's having the Sesame Street First Birthday thing. But that's all that's new I have like 200 pics on my camera I'll upload sometime but til then... I'll write when I can.

sasha_nobody @ 2009-03-30T21:56:00

2009-03-31T01:58:53Z

Dude I never thought to look on IMDB to see Adam Lazzara's middle name (which is fucking BURBANK... but he's still hot) and birthday because I never knew an it's September 22 1981 and I wouldn't call him old cause...damn duh lol so I can't call Christian old anymore cause his birthday is the same year just 3 months and 1 day after Adam's.

But anyway I've been thinking this forever and I have to fucking say it Russell Brand is fucking hilarious especially when he's playing Aldous Snow in Forgetting Sarah Marshall that whole seen with her faking an orgasm and everything he says is just the funniest fucking shit I've ever heard.. besides Sophia Petrillo on Golden Girls.

sasha_nobody @ 2009-03-03T11:23:00

2009-03-03T16:31:27Z

So...everythings awesome lately but I just can't seem to stay awake lol 1st trimester and taking care of a 9 month old just don't mix I guess. Drea and Trent are fine and hilarious kids I don't think I'd laugh as much if I didn't have them, everytime Trent hears music he bobs his head I don't know why it's so funny and he's already learned the concept of playing ball if you toss one to him he'll smack or kick it back to you. Drea's doing better and better in school which is good I can't belive she'll be 7 next month. Christian and I have been bickering lately but I know it's just because I'm ill because I don't really feel too good lately but he knows I love him and he made me crack up the other day because he kept singing like Bob Dylan. But Biggells (Trent) wants to play and I want to watch Dracula Dead and Loving It so I'm out <3.

fucking awesome

2009-02-26T18:01:13Z

sasha_nobody @ 2009-02-25T12:04:00

2009-02-25T17:06:42Z

Something fucking awesome happened; I ordered a bunch of game guides, books, DVD's, and 360 games off amazon and among all of it I got a bunch of Edward Lee books and UPS delivered his book The Backwoods that I had ordered yesterday and I only paid like $15 for it but it's fucking SIGNED it's one of 750 special edition copies that Edward Lee signed that's the most awesome thing I've ever bought without knowing it lol.

sasha_nobody @ 2009-02-19T13:14:00

2009-02-19T18:17:39Z

yea so it's official I went to the health department and it says I am 7 weeks pregnant. now I have to find a doctor (gay), Christian got a frankenstein skull tattoo on his forearm; I went ahead and got one too the only risks of getting tattoos when you're pregnant is the same risks as when you're not dirty needles etc. Besides I got my American Psycho tattoo when I was pregnant with Trent and he came out fine I got a ghost on one arm and a bat on the other (used some money to buy a washer and dryer didn't have enough for the joker or dexter anymore). whiney baby gotta go.

sasha_nobody @ 2009-02-16T15:21:00

2009-02-16T20:32:22Z

so it sucks that I can't get a tattoo but it's not recomended for pregnant women so in october after he/she is born I have to get his/her name since I've got Drea and Trent's and either the joker, pyramid head or dexter I don't know yet. Christian's getting his wednesday or this weekend and I don't know what he's getting yet because he doesn't know. We've.. well Christian's been playing Silent Hill Origins for me since I get so flustered when monsters pop out and I just end up fucking up everything lol the only one I can play is 2 and it's my favorite one because it's the only one with pyramid head in it besides this new one. But anyway we didn't get to Friday the 13th last Friday because my mom has the flu and couldn't watch the kids but we hung out at my parents Friday night and Saturday afternoon we took Drea to the "yellow mall" in Gaffney to Limited Too and she got an outfit and some stuff and we went in a shoe store there because they were doing a buy one get one half off thing and she wanted yet another pair of Hannah Montana shoes (that makes 7 or 8 she's got) and they had cute little black converse all stars that we got for Trent then we ran and got groceries for my mom since she couldn't and went to Hardee's and headed back to my moms and Nathan and Desiree came over and hung out for a few hours cause we haven't seen them in a while and Sunday after I watched the sneak premiere of Rock of Love Bus and Tool Academy (they always show it at like 11 or 11:30 sunday morning) we went to Jamie's and hung out with her and Steven all day which was awesome cause I really don't get to see her that much anymore. But anyway I've felt sick pretty much sinced I found out I was pregnant which sucks ass and I can only eat a few things without feeling like I'm going to vomit everywhere, but we've decided that if we have a girl her middle name is going to be Azilee after Christian's grandma and if we have a boy his middle name is going to be Keith after my dad. But it's time for Trent to eat so I'm off here. I took pictures of the kids last weekend I'll put them up later.